Have you ever behaved badly toward someone and hurt them? What did you do? Did you try to fix it? Was it even fixable?
I hurt a woman once. She was my best friend, my biggest cheerleader, the love of my life. She was that one person in my life (other than my mother) who was a constant. She loved me beyond measure and without reservation. But I hurt her. Not once. Not twice. But many times. Yet she remained loving and loyal to me in spite of myself. I certainly didn’t deserve such a wonderfully fantastic and loving woman. And she deserved much better than me. At least the me I was at the time anyway.
Then one day the pain I caused her yet again was greater than she could bear and she put me out of her life.
Have you ever hurt someone so deeply they disappear from your life? I did. I could give you all kinds of reasons, excuses and scenarios to explain why I did the things I did that caused her such pain, but the truth is at the time I was a low-life, pond scum-sucking piece of used toilet tissue. And I certainly didn’t deserve her.
Now… well, I’m still not the greatest person in the world, but I’m trying to be at least a good decent person. It get’s easier every day. What doesn’t get easier is knowing I threw away the very best woman I can ever hope to have in my life. Now, I am trying to make right in any way possible the great wrongs I cast upon my greatest love. Now I live for the opportunity to show her I can be the man she once thought I was. I can be a man who will never ever cause her pain. I can be a man.
Have you ever behaved so badly toward someone that you hurt them? Well don’t just sit there… fix it. And when you think you’ve got it fixed… keep on working to make sure it stays fixed!
